Hi Blog!

How are you? A few years have passed since my last post, haha. I apologize for not writing as often as I planned to or as I ever wanted to.

Life happened and time has passed. Was my last post in 2019? or was it 2018? If so, sorry for not checking in for such a longggggg time.

Let's flashback.

I write this to my future me, too, to remember that in 2020, there was a strange thing happening in the world called the COVID-19 pandemic. I forgot when exactly the restrictions were lifted. Is it the end of 2021 or earlier in 2022? But you know, there was a time when the world went quiet for almost two years. People around the world went to sleep earlier every night. We can't see each other often. Schools and public places were closed. We were locked inside our own bubble. We wear a mask every time; in fear of being caught showing flu-like symptoms. Strange, but it's happened - for almost two years round.

I personally think I have no updates during that time in my life. I saw my life just flashing before my eyes, I mean, time was never passed this fast for me personally. And in no time, it is 2024 and I just had my 29th birthday a few months ago.

Strange how life can be. Honestly, I never thought I was a 29-year-old lady by now. Haha. 

I mean, a lot has happened in this five to six-year span for me, but at the same time, it seems that not much has happened, too, if that makes sense. Yesterday I met my cousin's son, who was born in the year 2020, to whom whole life means the sum of everything I just told you. The life he knew must be just that, but maybe he does not even have the consciousness to understand how chaotically and eerily quiet time was during that time. Crazy how life works: it means plain story to somebody but means a lot - if not everything, to somebody else. 

We are all in the process of 'something', whatever this 'something' means. 

We are playing the story of life, in which we are its character.

Being and becoming. Lost and found.

I have lost a few times during these years too. I found love but learned it was not for me; I learned to take a big step but fall in between; I got what I wanted, but turn out it was not what I wanted in the first place. I took a few wrong turns, but surprisingly it led me to a new story too. I learned to be adaptive, whatever life brings to the table, enjoying every story -unapologetically unbeatable by being so.

I am not the kind of people who always have a bright perspective in life, but looking back, especially when I write this (read: unexpected reflective time), I think it is essential to put yourself in the right perspective (i.e do not see yourself as a victim of a situation, but rather see yourself as the adventurous self who take every story as an adventure worth trying) and always keep the good energy no matter what happened. Keep kicking ass, they said, and it miraculously works. Life keeps going and you become much stronger than you were before. 

In this journey, 'becoming' is something we always think about in this life. 'Becoming' is tied to something we desire, someone we want ourselves to be -someone far away.  I do think about that a lot; thinking the grass on the other side might always be greener. Thinking if my happiness may be laid somewhere else but here, today. But as much as I contemplate about that, I always go back to this: I think happiness is created. Happiness is not a unicorn in the hidden forest waiting to be found. It's not that mythical. Maybe, just maybe, happiness is the horse waiting to be dressed up with a made-up horn and with made-up wings; waiting to be claimed as the mythical unicorn. Anyway, does that make sense? Haha. What I am trying to say is, what if happiness is already here, at this time, ready to be celebrated instead of to be waited and to be found somewhere else. Look around you; celebrate your life, treasure your close one, amplify the joy you already have, and claim your happiness.

Maybe you already have the soup, just add the spice to make it more yummy.

Maybe.. 'being' and 'becoming' is not a foe, but an ally. We need to walk them together, hand in hand.

I was thinking that the future me was far away: I wanted to be comfortable with my body, I wanted to be comfortable with my life, I wanted a serious relationship blah, blah, blah; but becoming that lady I've always wanted will always start by what I choose to do today and create a habit around it. There is a line that connects me today and me tomorrow, I just need to look closely. Like I said before, maybe 'being' and 'becoming' is an ally, not a foe.

Anyway, enough with my blunder rants, haha. Let's talk about you: how about life on your side? Do you have some thoughts you want to share with me? I would like to hear your story and thoughts too :)

To end this blog post, I've put this picture to make us remember to always make a unicorn out of a horse we keep in our backyard; in other words, let's create our own happiness with what we already have!

Cheers to life!

Golda